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Topic Started: Mar 5 2013, 11:20 PM (695,717 Views)
Sheather
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Thank you for the set, Azrael!

Back from the beach.

Lake Michigan, I love ya.
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Laura
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4:01 am why TRT whyyyy?!
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Mmmmmmmmmm Cereal
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Laura
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Ohh great now im hungry and its 4:20 WHYYY? D:
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Laura I command you to sleep
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Farkle
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~Rad as Heck~

Just do what I do. Turn your computer off and put a whole bunch of stuff in front of the power button so that that you're too lazy to move it all and just end up laying on your bed staring at the ceiling until you're so bored you fall asleep. Or, if you're on a laptop or ipod or something of that nature, put it in another room far from your bedroom.
Edited by Farkle, Jul 9 2013, 11:44 PM.
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Murdock129
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Really really depressed... it's been getting worse recently, depressed a huge amount of the time so try to hide it so as not to hurt those around me, but my depression just takes nearly everything good in my life and tries to twist it into something bad, tries to bring me down...

I feel incredibly paranoid about all sorts of things happening and my depression tells me they will happen or even are happening when I know they aren't, or they tell me I'm not good enough, that I don't deserve to be happy...

And then when I manage to distract myself and having a good time my mind tells me I've done something stupid while I was having a good time, the only time I'm truly happy and my depression doesn't twist it into something bad is when I'm talking with Kayla... And I so badly miss being in America with her...

-sigh- I really wish I could just snuggle up with Kayla and feel better right now, I sometimes even wonder at this point if the world would be better off without me... I've been sleeping for longer and longer recently partially because I'm a deep sleeper anyway, and partially because at least when I'm asleep I don't feel depressed...

I really want to just pull myself together, to be strong, and I swear I'm trying my hardest, sometimes I just need to get it all out like this, I keep telling myself things will be ok given time, that I won't just be a loser with no job and virtually no friends, that one day I'll be able to come over to America and be with Kayla forever, that I won't be trapped in this male body and being seen as male for all my life.

It's just hard and sometimes I need to rant like this, I'm sorry if I shouldn't have, I just really wanted to get that out

Trying to focus on something else, I think this topic should be pinned
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Just finished writing a story for NeoTerra :D
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Murdock129
Jul 9 2013, 11:47 PM
Really really depressed... it's been getting worse recently, depressed a huge amount of the time so try to hide it so as not to hurt those around me, but my depression just takes nearly everything good in my life and tries to twist it into something bad, tries to bring me down...

I feel incredibly paranoid about all sorts of things happening and my depression tells me they will happen or even are happening when I know they aren't, or they tell me I'm not good enough, that I don't deserve to be happy...

And then when I manage to distract myself and having a good time my mind tells me I've done something stupid while I was having a good time, the only time I'm truly happy and my depression doesn't twist it into something bad is when I'm talking with Kayla... And I so badly miss being in America with her...

-sigh- I really wish I could just snuggle up with Kayla and feel better right now, I sometimes even wonder at this point if the world would be better off without me... I've been sleeping for longer and longer recently partially because I'm a deep sleeper anyway, and partially because at least when I'm asleep I don't feel depressed...

I really want to just pull myself together, to be strong, and I swear I'm trying my hardest, sometimes I just need to get it all out like this, I keep telling myself things will be ok given time, that I won't just be a loser with no job and virtually no friends, that one day I'll be able to come over to America and be with Kayla forever, that I won't be trapped in this male body and being seen as male for all my life.

It's just hard and sometimes I need to rant like this, I'm sorry if I shouldn't have, I just really wanted to get that out

Trying to focus on something else, I think this topic should be pinned
Murdock, you're not stupid, you're not going to be miserable for the rest of your life, your not be gonna stuck as a man forever, and whatever your paranoia tells you, it's lying. *hugs Murdock*
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trevelynh
Jul 10 2013, 12:01 AM
Murdock129
Jul 9 2013, 11:47 PM
Really really depressed... it's been getting worse recently, depressed a huge amount of the time so try to hide it so as not to hurt those around me, but my depression just takes nearly everything good in my life and tries to twist it into something bad, tries to bring me down...

I feel incredibly paranoid about all sorts of things happening and my depression tells me they will happen or even are happening when I know they aren't, or they tell me I'm not good enough, that I don't deserve to be happy...

And then when I manage to distract myself and having a good time my mind tells me I've done something stupid while I was having a good time, the only time I'm truly happy and my depression doesn't twist it into something bad is when I'm talking with Kayla... And I so badly miss being in America with her...

-sigh- I really wish I could just snuggle up with Kayla and feel better right now, I sometimes even wonder at this point if the world would be better off without me... I've been sleeping for longer and longer recently partially because I'm a deep sleeper anyway, and partially because at least when I'm asleep I don't feel depressed...

I really want to just pull myself together, to be strong, and I swear I'm trying my hardest, sometimes I just need to get it all out like this, I keep telling myself things will be ok given time, that I won't just be a loser with no job and virtually no friends, that one day I'll be able to come over to America and be with Kayla forever, that I won't be trapped in this male body and being seen as male for all my life.

It's just hard and sometimes I need to rant like this, I'm sorry if I shouldn't have, I just really wanted to get that out

Trying to focus on something else, I think this topic should be pinned
Murdock, you're not stupid, you're not going to be miserable for the rest of your life, your not be gonna stuck as a man forever, and whatever your paranoia tells you, it's lying. *hugs Murdock*
Murdock It ok we're all her for ya :hug:
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-hugs back- Thanks trevelynh

I try and tell myself exactly what you're telling me, just sometimes it becomes a bit much to cope with and I have little outbursts like this one, and at least I know I'll always have Kayla there for me, making everything better and being the most wonderful fiance in the world
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I just saw "The Hunger Games" with my friendS.... again.
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Wondering whether to have my Caracal kitten grow up or just buy a new, adult one since the Kittens are fairly rare. xD
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Would you recommend watching The Hunger Games without reading it first? I mean I've heard books are always better than the movie, but honestly sometimes that's off putting, for example I openly find the Harry Potter movies very disappointing as they don't live up to the books (well and they generally just get worse and worse from the 4th book onwards, culminating in the worst epilogue of any book/movie series in recent years which I have read/watched, and I've watched Troll 2 recently)
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Farkle
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Murdock129
Jul 10 2013, 12:10 AM
-hugs back- Thanks trevelynh

I try and tell myself exactly what you're telling me, just sometimes it becomes a bit much to cope with and I have little outbursts like this one, and at least I know I'll always have Kayla there for me, making everything better and being the most wonderful fiance in the world
Hey Murdock, it's okay. Just keep moving forward, keep those happy memories and thoughts with you, and trudge through it. It'll get better. *Gives Murdock an invisible cookie*

EDIT: I don't think with the Hunger Games it really matters, the book and the movie are both really good.
Edited by Farkle, Jul 10 2013, 12:42 AM.
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